August 25, 2006

Point of No Return

James Blunt's cd was on in my player. I stared at the envelope. It was an invitation to her birthday party. My long lost sister's. I preferred the 'long lost' part of it.

It wasn't always like this. We were as close as sisters can be. Best friends, literally. And then she did something awful. There comes a time in any relationship that is beginning to go sour, when you know instinctively that it will never be as good as it was, ever again. It doesn't happen in every relationship.... and sometimes does when you least expect it. I opened the envelope.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to beI've seen you cry,
I've seen you smile.I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby,
I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Call me...

I stared at it for a while. What the heck. I lifted the phone off its cradle and dialled. I didn't have to look anywhere for the number.
'Sasha ?' The voice at the other end asked.
'Hey Nikki...' I swallowed the lump in my throat. 'I just got your card'
'And you were listening to the song, weren't you?'
'Yep dear twin.. yes i was'
'Happens every time... atleast it used to... Can you forgive me?'
'I dunno nikki... but i want to..'
'thanks... i hope its a start.. so can we celebrate our birthday's together?'
Tricky. I hope she wouldn't take it badly when I said no.
'Sure. Why not?' the words were out of my mouth before I could say No.
She giggled, tentatively. And we laughed.
It might never be the same again. But there wasn't any harm in trying...

3 comments:

nish said...

t'was cute!!!.............. :-)

Rush said...

thanks dearie!! :) :)

SuiciDAL vEnom!! said...

the song is an ultimate rocker! ur blog?? duuuuuuhhhhh! ;oD